dreamcatchings: (misc: be ok)
Bit of a cut for the RL stuffs

And now for something a little more serious )
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Bit of a cut for the RL stuffs

And now for something a little more serious )
dreamcatchings: (nano 10)
My head feels like it's in a vise due to this stupid cold.

However, I have written 17,062 words for my NaNo project and am almost done with the third chapter so that's not too shabby. Seeing as how I met my personal goal of writing over 5,000 words in one day, I am now going to make some tea, take some more cold medicine and veg out on my couch until the aforementioned cold medicine makes me drowsy and I go to sleep.

I have a concert tomorrow night so I doubt I'll get as much writing done, but the good news is that almost all my other chores are completed so I can spend the hours before the concert working some more on the novel. My goal for tomorrow is to get chapter three done and then get about halfway into chapter four.
dreamcatchings: (nano 10)
My head feels like it's in a vise due to this stupid cold.

However, I have written 17,062 words for my NaNo project and am almost done with the third chapter so that's not too shabby. Seeing as how I met my personal goal of writing over 5,000 words in one day, I am now going to make some tea, take some more cold medicine and veg out on my couch until the aforementioned cold medicine makes me drowsy and I go to sleep.

I have a concert tomorrow night so I doubt I'll get as much writing done, but the good news is that almost all my other chores are completed so I can spend the hours before the concert working some more on the novel. My goal for tomorrow is to get chapter three done and then get about halfway into chapter four.

NaNo Update

Nov. 4th, 2010 06:38 pm
dreamcatchings: (nano 10)


And two chapters done.

On the downside, I am feeling a little feverish and my throat hurts. I've started dosing myself with OTC cold medicine. The good news is that other than a concert on Saturday, my only weekend plans were staying home and writing anyway.

NaNo Update

Nov. 4th, 2010 06:38 pm
dreamcatchings: (nano 10)


And two chapters done.

On the downside, I am feeling a little feverish and my throat hurts. I've started dosing myself with OTC cold medicine. The good news is that other than a concert on Saturday, my only weekend plans were staying home and writing anyway.
dreamcatchings: (buffy: mind trap)
I have a doctor's appointment scheduled for July 1st. It's a little far out, but it's way better than nothing.

Now to just get some old doctor's names together so I can take them and they can request records, which might be a little hard because I've had a penchant for going to foreign doctors whose names I cannot spell, pronounce or remember. Oy.
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I have a doctor's appointment scheduled for July 1st. It's a little far out, but it's way better than nothing.

Now to just get some old doctor's names together so I can take them and they can request records, which might be a little hard because I've had a penchant for going to foreign doctors whose names I cannot spell, pronounce or remember. Oy.
dreamcatchings: (xfiles: the truth is out there)
Finally managed to pick a PCP (primary care physician) from the insurance list who is A) accepting new patients and B) still at the office and number listed.

As such I am on my way to having an actual doctor's appointment so I can find out WTH is wrong with me and hopefully get a referral for a therapist.

Once they have confirmed my insurance information, they should be calling me back to schedule an appointment.

Baby steps.
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Finally managed to pick a PCP (primary care physician) from the insurance list who is A) accepting new patients and B) still at the office and number listed.

As such I am on my way to having an actual doctor's appointment so I can find out WTH is wrong with me and hopefully get a referral for a therapist.

Once they have confirmed my insurance information, they should be calling me back to schedule an appointment.

Baby steps.
dreamcatchings: (mulder: lie to me)
My weekend is shorter than usual. Or, well, I guess I should say that I got as many days off as normal it's just that I didn't take them all together. I swapped my Saturday for a Tuesday off so that a co-worker could attend a friend's wedding. I am a nice person underneath it all.

A lot has happened that really isn't anything at all.

I had a power surge that killed my cable modem (swapped at work), NIC (replaced), crippled the TV (gone for repairs), blew the HDMI port on the cable box (to be swapped once I get the TV back so I can finish recording things from the DVR that are irreplaceable) and killed the Wii (currently trying to decide whether to pay the $75 for repairs or save the $200 for a new black one.) I've also replaced (almost, one to go) my surge protectors. It's been a bit expensive because other than the devices I can swap through work and the TV, nothing covers anything. My renter's insurance has a $500 deductible, and I have to somehow prove that these things were damaged by lighting. Um. Unless there are giant scorch marks on things (sadly absent) it's very hard to diagnose lightning or power surges. As such I have basically rolled my eyes at that and given up the ghost.

So money is a little tighter right now than I like thanks to having to replace things. Not to mention that I tend to overspend on Mother's Day and Father's Day.

Fortunately there's one more back tax check to come in from Kentucky that should help me pay off credit cards and still stash a little away for my trip to North Carolina this October. I'm going to go see [livejournal.com profile] kcauac!

This past Monday I had something weird happen health-wise. I had a strange sensation in my throat most of the day. It was almost as though there was a big lump or my throat was closing up from the inside. It did not hamper my breathing or swallowing, but it was annoying and basically driving me crazy. I was distracted through work and there were times when I seriously had to restrain myself from clawing at my throat to try and make it let go. It would get better when I ate or when I drank hot liquids. Fortunately I drink a lot of hot tea at work because the place is kept so frigid I wear my jacket inside. It lasted pretty much all day long. When I got home I did a little research on the internet, and it actually sounds like it might have been a cricopharyngeal spasm. Based on what I found, I took half a muscle relaxer with some hot tea, which both helped, and then knocked out since I didn't have to work the next day. It did help. Just another sign I need to stop stressing myself out, I guess.

So.

List: )
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My weekend is shorter than usual. Or, well, I guess I should say that I got as many days off as normal it's just that I didn't take them all together. I swapped my Saturday for a Tuesday off so that a co-worker could attend a friend's wedding. I am a nice person underneath it all.

A lot has happened that really isn't anything at all.

I had a power surge that killed my cable modem (swapped at work), NIC (replaced), crippled the TV (gone for repairs), blew the HDMI port on the cable box (to be swapped once I get the TV back so I can finish recording things from the DVR that are irreplaceable) and killed the Wii (currently trying to decide whether to pay the $75 for repairs or save the $200 for a new black one.) I've also replaced (almost, one to go) my surge protectors. It's been a bit expensvie because other than the devices I can swap through work and the TV, nothing covers anything. My renter's insurance has a $500 deductible, and I have to somehow prove that these things were damaged by lighting. Um. Unless there are giant scorch marks on things (sadly absent) it's very hard to diagnose lightning or power surges. As such I have basically rolled my eyes at that and given up the ghost.

So money is a little tighter right now than I like thanks to having to replace things. Not to mention that I tend to overspend on Monther's Day and Father's Day.

Fortunately there's one more back tax check to come in from Kentucky that should help me pay off credit cards and still stash a little away for my trip to North Carolina this October. I'm going to go see [Bad username or unknown identity: <a href=]!

This past Monday I had something weird happen health-wise. I had a strange sensation in my throat most of the day. It was almost as though there was a big lump or my throat was closing up from the inside. It did not hamper my breathing or swallowing, but it was annoying and basically driving me crazy. I was distracted through work and there were times when I seriously had to restrain myself from clawing at my throat to try and make it let go. It would get better when I ate or when I drank hot liquids. Fortunately I drink a lot of hot tea at work because the place is kept so frigid I wear my jacket inside. It lasted pretty much all day long. When I got home I did a little research on the internet, and it actually sounds like it might have been a cricopharyngeal spasm. Based on what I found, I took half a muscle relaxer with some hot tea, which both helped, and then knocked out since I didn't have to work the next day. It did help. Just another sign I need to stop stressing myself out, I guess.

So.

List: )
dreamcatchings: (illy: rise)
From my Buddhist Wisdom Inspiration Cards:





This life is like a dream
from which we awake
at death.
The next life is like
another dream, which ends
when we awake.
This awakening is called enlightenment.


That would be from an Enlightenment card if you couldn't tell. I know enough about Buddhism and the cycle of reincarnation to understand the point of this card. I really do. Knowing something and prescribing to something are two completely different things, however. I am not Buddhist. I cannot stomach most of the goals on the road to enlightenment. I think I've talked about this before. I cannot give up extremes of emotion. I will love and love completely. It will break me apart like it always does, but I refuse to let that go. It's not a great feeling when a friend can turn your whole world upside down with a word or you feel guilty for days for saying the wrong thing and hurting someone's feelings, but it's me. That's simply the way I do things. That's the way my heart works. I do not want to train it to work another way, to be something else.

I need some changes in my life. There are things that need to go because they're not working. There are ways that I react that are not healthy. I acknowledge this. Now all I have to do is actually get the ball rolling: doctor, referral, therapy, possibly medication. I don't want medication. I do not prescribe to the idea of the Prozac Nation, either. Medication does not cure everywhere. Maybe all my hangups are tied into wonky brain chemicals. I'm not saying it's not possible. In all honesty, I likely suffer from a few chemical imbalances that need to be addressed, but that does not mean I want my emotional well-being to be dependent on drugs. I have a high propensity to either acclimate or being allergic to medicine. It's why the list of antibiotics I can consume it steadily shrinking. I take one for a while and then the next time it's given to me, it causes an allergic reaction. It's never anything that serious, mind, but I'm not looking for it to happen with everything. I limit myself to as little medication as possible.

I'm not saying that enlightenment is a bad thing to try to achieve. I'm not trying to come down on Buddhism or anything like that. I think it's a perfectly acceptable path, and people have every right to follow it if it suits them. I'm just saying it's not me. Enlightenment might be, but my idea of enlightenment is a little different. I don't think we're meant to know all the secrets and follies of the universe. I'm not sure we'd be able to understand the meaning or point of it all even with the little piece of divinity resting inside all of us. I think enlightenment has to start within yourself. Once you know yourself, love yourself and are at peace with yourself then I think you can start working outward and applying that love and knowledge to the rest of the world.
dreamcatchings: (illy: rise)
From my Buddhist Wisdom Inspiration Cards:





This life is like a dream
from which we awake
at death.
The next life is like
another dream, which ends
when we awake.
This awakening is called enlightenment.


That would be from an Enlightenment card if you couldn't tell. I know enough about Buddhism and the cycle of reincarnation to understand the point of this card. I really do. Knowing something and prescribing to something are two completely different things, however. I am not Buddhist. I cannot stomach most of the goals on the road to enlightenment. I think I've talked about this before. I cannot give up extremes of emotion. I will love and love completely. It will break me apart like it always does, but I refuse to let that go. It's not a great feeling when a friend can turn your whole world upside down with a word or you feel guilty for days for saying the wrong thing and hurting someone's feelings, but it's me. That's simply the way I do things. That's the way my heart works. I do not want to train it to work another way, to be something else.

I need some changes in my life. There are things that need to go because they're not working. There are ways that I react that are not healthy. I acknowledge this. Now all I have to do is actually get the ball rolling: doctor, referral, therapy, possibly medication. I don't want medication. I do not prescribe to the idea of the Prozac Nation, either. Medication does not cure everywhere. Maybe all my hangups are tied into wonky brain chemicals. I'm not saying it's not possible. In all honesty, I likely suffer from a few chemical imbalances that need to be addressed, but that does not mean I want my emotional well-being to be dependent on drugs. I have a high propensity to either acclimate or being allergic to medicine. It's why the list of antibiotics I can consume it steadily shrinking. I take one for a while and then the next time it's given to me, it causes an allergic reaction. It's never anything that serious, mind, but I'm not looking for it to happen with everything. I limit myself to as little medication as possible.

I'm not saying that enlightenment is a bad thing to try to achieve. I'm not trying to come down on Buddhism or anything like that. I think it's a perfectly acceptable path, and people have every right to follow it if it suits them. I'm just saying it's not me. Enlightenment might be, but my idea of enlightenment is a little different. I don't think we're meant to know all the secrets and follies of the universe. I'm not sure we'd be able to understand the meaning or point of it all even with the little piece of divinity resting inside all of us. I think enlightenment has to start within yourself. Once you know yourself, love yourself and are at peace with yourself then I think you can start working outward and applying that love and knowledge to the rest of the world.
dreamcatchings: (misc: hide your fear)
Just got back from going to the Urgent Care Center to make sure that nothing was worse than it felt. The doctor confirmed what I had though: bruises and torn/pulled muscles. It's okay. The car insurance will pay for the Urgent Care Center visit. I got a prescription for muscle relaxers.

Tomorrow I think I'm just going to get things done around the house and take it easy some more. I'm thinking laundry, dishes, maybe some cooking but nothing major.

Saturday I'll get the rental car situation figured out because tomorrow they should be calling me with the estimate/time frame on the car.
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Just got back from going to the Urgent Care Center to make sure that nothing was worse than it felt. The doctor confirmed what I had though: bruises and torn/pulled muscles. It's okay. The car insurance will pay for the Urgent Care Center visit. I got a prescription for muscle relaxers.

Tomorrow I think I'm just going to get things done around the house and take it easy some more. I'm thinking laundry, dishes, maybe some cooking but nothing major.

Saturday I'll get the rental car situation figured out because tomorrow they should be calling me with the estimate/time frame on the car.
dreamcatchings: (paige: trapped)
Plans for this week:

Do not let work eat me and make me want to do nothing on my days off but curl into a self-pity ball and whinge.

Post. OMG post. I seriously never ever ever meant to do a whole relapse but the holidays and depression over the job managed to win me over. Then there was taxes and schedule changes. I just hope I can get back into the swing of things on Thursday. Even if I can only manage one thread for each girl at a time it would be better than nothing. And it wouldn't make me feel like as much of a failure.

Deposit state return check from Kentucky and send check to Indiana since my job has my W2 completely whacked out.

Go watch figure skating with Mum.

Make a doctor's appointment. Other than the need to get a referral to some sort of "I will fix your mental trauma" doctor, I have some distressing physical ailments, which include:


  • headaches
  • slow clotting
  • ear problems
  • heartburn that might be caused by ulcer or acid reflux
  • dizzy spells
  • hormonal imbalance (De's suggestion)
  • diabetes concerns (mine)
  • eye twitches



There might be more for the doctor's list, but that's all I can think of at the moment.

Cold. Bed time now.
dreamcatchings: (Default)
Plans for this week:

Do not let work eat me and make me want to do nothing on my days off but curl into a self-pity ball and whinge.

Post. OMG post. I seriously never ever ever meant to do a whole relapse but the holidays and depression over the job managed to win me over. Then there was taxes and schedule changes. I just hope I can get back into the swing of things on Thursday. Even if I can only manage one thread for each girl at a time it would be better than nothing. And it wouldn't make me feel like as much of a failure.

Deposit state return check from Kentucky and send check to Indiana since my job has my W2 completely whacked out.

Go watch figure skating with Mum.

Make a doctor's appointment. Other than the need to get a referral to some sort of "I will fix your mental trauma" doctor, I have some distressing physical ailments, which include:


  • headaches
  • slow clotting
  • ear problems
  • heartburn that might be caused by ulcer or acid reflux
  • dizzy spells
  • hormonal imbalance (De's suggestion)
  • diabetes concerns (mine)
  • eye twitches



There might be more for the doctor's list, but that's all I can think of at the moment.

Cold. Bed time now.
dreamcatchings: (buffy: never normal)
I've been away for a bit again. Things are somewhat stressful. Stressful enough that I taxed my body out and have been suffering with a pretty nasty cold, though Patrick blames himself because I went over there to watch him play video games and help him with some things while he was still sick. I don't argue with him. He can believe that if he wishes, though I'm more inclined to think that he was over his infectious period, and I got it when I went shopping earlier that day.

I bought a computer on Thanksgiving. It's not here yet. I worked so I bought it online along with seasons 1 through 4 of Weeds. I worked half the day Black Friday and bought some Bath and Body Works stuff for cheap. Christmas shopping is almost done.

I now have an Archive of Our Own account but nothing loaded yet because I just got the invite today. Woot! I'll have to work on getting that full and then apologize for the immaturity of the fic considering I started writing those when I was 13.

I have a forum RPG again, though it's barely on it's little legs, and I've been slow.

Yesterday while home sick, I managed to put Windows 7 Pro 64 on my formerly Windows Vista Ult 32 using the Custom Install on the upgrade disc. It works wonderfully.

I need to take a shower and head over to Mom's. I think the Titanic exhibit is out of the question given my never ending cold, but we can hang out and watch Gilmore Girls or something.

Oh! That reminds me. I very recently discovered Doctor Who and am now in the middle of the third season of the latest run. I love Tennant as the Doctor, though I was very fond of Rose, and I'm getting tired of Martha.

Must dash now. The cold finally let me sleep a whole night through, and I slept in. It was lovely, but it means that now I have to hurry.
dreamcatchings: (wash: give me love)
Doctor's appointment plans set back due to the fact that the physician I arbitairly picked when signing up for my health insurance is not accepting new patients, thus forcing me to switch my PCP, wait for the change to be official (a month) and then wait for my new insurance cards. So I cannot go to the doctor or consider therapy until said events have taken place. *sigh* That ball has been delayed but is rolling.

In other news, well, I maybe, possibly made a huge mistake about something. Not sure yet. I'm also not giving out any details because there are many here who might scold me for it. I'm just going to wait and see what happens and then either make a happy post with all the details or make a completely broken, dejected post with all the details. You're just going to have to wait and be anxious with me.

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