dreamcatchings: (esotsm: heartlost)
March has been a bit of a hard month. It's been long and stressful to a certain degree. I've been switching my schedule around about every week for one thing or another. My mother had to have cataract surgery done in both eyes, one of my tires went completely flat, an issue with ordering from a restaurant still hasn't been resolved almost a month later, and my department is moving buildings. This last one is probably the biggest because it requires not only the physical move but also a new wardrobe as well as coloring my hair back to something that passes as "natural" instead of green.

The moving process was done today. I wasn't there. I work the late shift so my boss suggested I just take today off and work next Wednesday instead. We have a weirdly running pay week. I had to say my goodbyes to a building and people I have worked with Wednesday night. Over five years. I spent over five years in one building save for some projects here and there. I worked with some people for that entire duration of time. I had to say goodbye to that building, to those people on Wednesday. A number of them are not people that I hang out with outside of work. They are work friends, work family. It feels like I will never see them again. That opens a hole up in my chest.

And there are things that a friend mentioned to me that I don't know what to make of, which always bothers me.
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March has been a bit of a hard month. It's been long and stressful to a certain degree. I've been switching my schedule around about every week for one thing or another. My mother had to have cataract surgery done in both eyes, one of my tires went completely flat, an issue with ordering from a restaurant still hasn't been resolved almost a month later, and my department is moving buildings. This last one is probably the biggest because it requires not only the physical move but also a new wardrobe as well as coloring my hair back to something that passes as "natural" instead of green.

The moving process was done today. I wasn't there. I work the late shift so my boss suggested I just take today off and work next Wednesday instead. We have a weirdly running pay week. I had to say my goodbyes to a building and people I have worked with Wednesday night. Over five years. I spent over five years in one building save for some projects here and there. I worked with some people for that entire duration of time. I had to say goodbye to that building, to those people on Wednesday. A number of them are not people that I hang out with outside of work. They are work friends, work family. It feels like I will never see them again. That opens a hole up in my chest.

And there are things that a friend mentioned to me that I don't know what to make of, which always bothers me.

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Feb. 4th, 2012 12:45 pm
dreamcatchings: (scully: smart is sexy)
New job is good so far. I still don't have access to as much as I need. It's been a slow, long fight with our IS department to get them to make my phone work and my computer to work and access what they should. In the meantime, I do what I can and no one yells at me. Seriously. This group of people is so nice. I'm still the new kid so I don't automatically click with every one just yet, but I'm not having any conflicts with anyone either. I'm totally down with that. And the two people I work with the most I've known foe years so we already have a decently established working relationship.

I've started working out some potential plot threads on the game I mentioned previously. I'll post those here too eventually. Hopefully I'll be able to be on AIM again soon so people can hit me up there and talk the talk yo.

I really do want to get Powers in the Verse off the ground because I think it could be a lot of fun. I'm still pondering what the best format for it will be. I live both forum and journal a lot. I can see the pros and cons of both for sure. I'm going to have to hammer that our more.

I am also still working--or rather just recently started--those Christmas fics I promised a couple of people. The drastic decrease in stress is allowing me to have more time to be creative rather than feeling like I've been steamrolled so that's another bonus.
dreamcatchings: (sfu: burn it away)
I promised an explanation post, which I still need to do, but here's a quick and dirty highlight: I start a new position at work tomorrow. It's not the trainer one. It's the one that has to do with time cards and administrative things. It's more base pay and a comparable schedule. Here's hoping I don't suck at it.
dreamcatchings: (Default)
I promised an explanation post, which I still need to do, but here's a quick and dirty highlight: I start a new position at work tomorrow. It's not the trainer one. It's the one that has to do with time cards and administrative things. It's more base pay and a comparable schedule. Here's hoping I don't suck at it.
dreamcatchings: (buffy: never normal)
I feel that I should explain a little more to everyone I freaked out a bit.

Everyone with the bank and their fraud department has been really nice so far. The card in question has basically been canceled and a new one (new number and everything) is being sent to me. The charge for that card can even be refunded. So far none of the charges have gone through. If they do my bank will contest them and get me the money back but so far it looks like the fraudulent charges won't even affect me all that much, which is good.

Last night's posting was a bit of a giant, stressed out knee jerk reaction. I know how much you all love me, and I'm very thankful to have you.

I still have not heard about the other job position because the head of that department is on vacation.

I also have my period so that's making me more RAWR and WOE than normal.

For the most part things have been pretty good, and I love my IJ RPG so much. Go Blackwater.

I currently have a headache and need to eat, but I wanted to update you all and say thanks for all the support.

ETA: As far as the car, well, that was a $500 money suck, but it no longer leaks when it rains, which is good because it was leaking into the dash and all over wires. So that needed to be fixed and there isn't much I can do about it other than suck it up. All this shit just has terrible timing.
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I feel that I should explain a little more to everyone I freaked out a bit.

Everyone with the bank and their fraud department has been really nice so far. The card in question has basically been canceled and a new one (new number and everything) is being sent to me. The charge for that card can even be refunded. So far none of the charges have gone through. If they do my bank will contest them and get me the money back but so far it looks like the fraudulent charges won't even affect me all that much, which is good.

Last night's posting was a bit of a giant, stressed out knee jerk reaction. I know how much you all love me, and I'm very thankful to have you.

I still have not heard about the other job position because the head of that department is on vacation.

I also have my period so that's making me more RAWR and WOE than normal.

For the most part things have been pretty good, and I love my IJ RPG so much. Go Blackwater.

I currently have a headache and need to eat, but I wanted to update you all and say thanks for all the support.

ETA: As far as the car, well, that was a $500 money suck, but it no longer leaks when it rains, which is good because it was leaking into the dash and all over wires. So that needed to be fixed and there isn't much I can do about it other than suck it up. All this shit just has terrible timing.
dreamcatchings: (scott pilgrim: ramona new life)
Dear World;

I didn't really need this. No, really. I didn't. The car, the job and now fraudulent charges on my check card?

I can't deal.

You win.

I'm a miserable ball of fail and no one loves me. I'm sorry for even trying.
dreamcatchings: (Default)
Dear World;

I didn't really need this. No, really. I didn't. The car, the job and now my fraudulent charges on my check card?

I can't deal.

You win.

I'm a miserable ball of fail and no one loves me. I'm sorry for even trying.
dreamcatchings: (misc: once upon a time)
It's been a busy last two weeks.

Last week I was working OT on both Thursday and Friday for various meetings and projects I've been working on.

Yesterday I was also working more OT for one of the aforementioned projects.

I've barely been on the internet and when I am it's mostly to RP, which I am so glad I picked up again. So if I owe anyone emails, messages, posts, etc. this is my public apology. Most nights when I get home, I eat something, watch an episode of Fringe (I'm almost caught up!), get ready for bed, read and then go to sleep. It's a pretty boring life.

Today I'm heading out shortly to spend some time with my mom.

Once all this OT goes away, I can make time for RL friends again. The only people getting to talk to me now are my RP buddies because they don't mind if I'm crashed out on the couch and exhausted as long as AIM is open.

Got my tax returns, which means I have to deposit them and then pay Indiana before I can buy myself anything. The current wishlist:


  • stand mixer (Viking or Bosch are high on the list but I've not decided yet)
  • glasses
  • tires
  • mattress



Obviously not all those things are going to happen but between the tax refund and all my OT money it just might. Here's to hoping.

[livejournal.com profile] wanderlustlover, I saw a license plate while driving to work yesterday that remind me of you. It said, "Be Love".

I think both [livejournal.com profile] wanderlustlover and [livejournal.com profile] calliopes_pen should check outthe RP game I'm in. It's here for the OOC and here for IC. Still lots of characters open. (Obviously everyone else can feel free to check it. Those were just the two that automatically came to mind.)
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It's been a bust last two weeks.

Last week I was working OT on both Thursday and Friday for various meetings and projects I've been working on.

Yesterday I was also working more OT for one of the aforementioned projects.

I've barely been on the internet and when I am it's mostly to RP, which I am so glad I picked up again. So if I owe anyone emails, messages, posts, etc. this is my public apology. Most nights when I get home, I eat something, watch an episode of Fringe (I'm almost caught up!), get ready for bed, read and then go to sleep. It's a pretty boring life.

Today I'm heading out shortly to spend some time with my mom.

Once all this OT goes away, I can make time for RL friends again. The only people getting to talk to me now are my RP buddies because they don't mind if I'm crashed out on the couch and exhausted as long as AIM is open.

Got my tax returns, which means I have to deposit them and then pay Indiana before I can buy myself anything. The current wishlist:


  • stand mixer (Viking or Bosch are high on the list but I've not decided yet)
  • glasses
  • tires
  • mattress



Obviously not all those things are going to happen but between the tax refund and all my OT money it just might. Here's to hoping.

[personal profile] wanderlustlover, I saw a license plate while driving to work yesterday that remind me of you. It said, "Be Love".

I think both [personal profile] wanderlustlover and [personal profile] calliopes_pen should check outthe RP game I'm in. It's here for the OOC and here for IC. Still lots of characters open. (Obviously everyone else can feel free to check it. Those were just the two that automatically came to mind.)
dreamcatchings: (tw: secret smile)
I wanted to write an entry about work and weather and the state of my apartment's parking lot, but I don't feel like bothering now. My work week is over. The terrible winter nightmare weather has broken for the moment. And the apartment parking lot is thawing out and no longer a treacherous no man's land of ice and impending misery. My cold has almost completely gone away so I've sort of forgiven it for being here for about two weeks or something now.

Today I've been taking it easy a little more. I watched Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. (Again. I keep watching it. At this rate I'll have to buy it rather than just keep watching the burned copy.) I've found that I like the movie better than the graphic novels.

Now I'm watching Juno.

Later this weekend I'm planning to make calzones and Oreo cheesecake.
dreamcatchings: (tw: secret smile)
I wanted to write an entry about work and weather and the state of my apartment's parking lot, but I don't feel like bothering now. My work week is over. The terrible winter nightmare weather has broken for the moment. And the apartment parking lot is thawing out and no longer a treacherous no man's land of ice and impending misery. My cold has almost completely gone away so I've sort of forgiven it for being here for about two weeks or something now.

Today I've been taking it easy a little more. I watched Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. (Again. I keep watching it. At this rate I'll have to buy it rather than just keep watching the burned copy.) I've found that I like the movie better than the graphic novels.

Now I'm watching Juno.

Later this weekend I'm planning to make calzones and Oreo cheesecake.
dreamcatchings: (buffy: happy never sticks)
I have started NaNo and already have almost 3,000 words down. It's difficult because during my work week I can really only work on it after work for about an hour or so before I need to go to bed. So I went ahead and copied the thing into Google Docs so I can write a little bit while on lunches and breaks. My major pushes will undoubtedly occur on my off days, but every little bit help. Of course I think it's awful. Total and utter smeg. It's a little disorganized and all over the place and just rambly. I am not editing until at least December. And I will not delete it and start again. I am going to see the course through awful or not. When it's over and done with I can scrap the bad parts or refine them and keep the good. Until then this is more about me writing at all than about me writing something good. I am okay with that, and I'm enjoying it for the most part. Although I do sort of sit at work all day and just want to go home so I can write. That's probably a good thing for the novel and a bad thing for my job.
dreamcatchings: (buffy: happy never sticks)
I have started NaNo and already have almost 3,000 words down. It's difficult because during my work week I can really only work on it after work for about an hour or so before I need to go to bed. So I went ahead and copied the thing into Google Docs so I can write a little bit while on lunches and breaks. My major pushes will undoubtedly occur on my off days, but every little bit help. Of course I think it's awful. Total and utter smeg. It's a little disorganized and all over the place and just rambly. I am not editing until at least December. And I will not delete it and start again. I am going to see the course through awful or not. When it's over and done with I can scrap the bad parts or refine them and keep the good. Until then this is more about me writing at all than about me writing something good. I am okay with that, and I'm enjoying it for the most part. Although I do sort of sit at work all day and just want to go home so I can write. That's probably a good thing for the novel and a bad thing for my job.
dreamcatchings: (illy: unhappy ending)
*insert frustrated and emo whinging about job aka WTF is wrong with my life*

(This entry to be completed at a later date and time.)
dreamcatchings: (Default)
*insert frustrated and emo whinging about job aka WTF is wrong with my life*

(This entry to be completed at a later date and time.)
dreamcatchings: (river: forgot me)
I sometimes feel like I gave you everything I had, all that there was of me, everything I wanted to be and wanted to do, everything bright and shiny and good. I wrapped it all up in you. I wrapped everything that ever was or will be me up in you. So that when you walked away, I was left with nothing to offer anyone. There's not even anything left to offer myself. If I pause and think, pay attention and feel, that hole in me resounds with the noise of the pebbles I toss down it, trying to fill the void and not getting any closer to being whole. I echo in the darkness. I reflect the light of the sun that once was bright. I am this broken, empty thing that seems to barely survive.

My supervisor has a work/life goal spreadsheet thing he wants us to do as an exercise. I can't. I can't bring myself to do it. The only thing I want is to not be miserable. I can't write that down for my supervisor so I don't do it. I just work. I just work on everything I can get my hands on, and I try not to think or feel anything real at all.
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I sometimes feel like I gave you everything I had, all that there was of me, everything I wanted to be and wanted to do, everything bright and shiny and good. I wrapped it all up in you. I wrapped everything that ever was or will be me up in you. So that when you walked away, I was left with nothing to offer anyone. There's not even anything left to offer myself. If I pause and think, pay attention and feel, that hole in me resounds with the noise of the pebbles I toss down it, trying to fill the void and not getting any closer to being whole. I echo in the darkness. I reflect the light of the sun that once was bright. I am this broken, empty thing that seems to barely survive.

My supervisor has a work/life goal spreadsheet thing he wants us to do as an exercise. I can't. I can't bring myself to do it. The only thing I want is to not be miserable. I can't write that down for my supervisor so I don't do it. I just work. I just work on everything I can get my hands on, and I try not to think or feel anything real at all.

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Mar. 11th, 2010 10:42 am
dreamcatchings: (xmen: solitary angel)
Another week over, another weekend begun. I don't want to talk about the work week because it was fairly awful in the middle. The start and end of it weren't too bad, though. Well. Other than the fact that there are things that people do and say that annoy me to no end likely not through any fault of their own but because my own brain processes everything it possibly can as being intended to in some way hurt my feelings, which I doubt is anyone's goal.

Things to do this weekend:


  • laundry
  • dishes
  • vacuum
  • clean bathroom

  • clean kitchen
  • grocery
  • prepare food for next week
  • floors
  • spring cleaning?
  • crochet
  • Cajun with friends
  • IHOP?
  • RP!
  • Buddhist words of the week
  • write
  • watch (500) Days of Summer
  • make doctor's appointment (assuming I can find a working number for the place)

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