Hopeless Case

[dreamcatchings]

Minor meltdown at work last night that involved me crying in the call center while trying desperately not to (at least it was only a few tears here and there and no sobbing) and then sobbing in my car as I drove home. I don't know what it is but I have not felt like me all week. It seems like everything is overwhelming, everything is going wrong, everything is my personal fault (seriously, the sky could turn red and it'd be my fault) and I'm a failure in more ways than it is possible to even begin listing.

The result is that it piles and piles and piles until it breaks and I have the mini-meltdown. In front of people. Bah.

All I really want to do, have wanted to do, is stay home, stay in bed or on the couch. I don't even really want to be online because I am invariably disappointing people on here as well. It's not a good mood. I don't like it, but it's here. And I usually just have to wait them out.